The love that came to you in particular, concrete human friendships and that awakened your dormant desire to be completely and unconditionally loved was real and authentic. It does not have to be denied as dangerous and idolatrous. A love that comes to you through human beings is true, God-given love and needs to be celebrated as such...The task is not to die to life-giving relationships but to realize that the love you recieved in them is part of a greater love. God has given you a beautiful self. There God dwells and loves you with the first love, which precededs all human love. You carry your own beautiful, deeply loved self in your heart. You can and must hold on to the truth of the love in others who see your goodness and love you...
These have been some of the weirdest days I have ever lived.
I really think they have been.
Yesterday I was really busy, and stressed and study crazy. And today, I have nothing...
These weeks have been waves of boredom and frenzy.
The end of this semester means leaving Waco (kinda... or more like everyone else leaving Waco) , missing dear friends and something that just struck me so much is how much i will be missing weekly service.
Some weeks, I'm tired, have a headache, tons of work to do, and don't know how I'm going to get through.
Then I go spend and hour with 20 perfectly free, absolutely childlike kids. Who just want to swing and play hair salon. And, just want to be hugged, noticed, played with.
Those moments, each week, were my refreshment this year.
My reminder, of childlike innocence, and how beautiful and of God it really is to just let go.
To run around, to play silly games, imagine, and stop worrying about all of the things we were never supposed to worry about in the first place.
Playground, I will miss you... maybe, just maybe, during summer school, we can all still spend our Wednesday afternoons on the playground. like we always have.
That'd be a dream. come true.
"Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of God belongs to such as these." Luke 18:16
Tonight I got to celebrate the lives of two of my dearest friends Haley and Allison who are leaving Waco and beginning a new chapter in their lives in Dallas at nursing school this next fall.
These are two of the most bright, brilliant human beings I have ever known and I don't know if they will ever understand what a light they have been to my life.
Sweet Allison is the kind of person who makes ever person feel sincerely noticed, appreciated and loved. She is intentional and conscientious of everyone around her. She gives the sweetest hugs, greets everybody with her sweet southern accent and smile. Allison, you are the greatest of friends. I love you. And conversations with you, even simple ones, have never been a waste. I hope we have a million more in our lives.
Haley, the things you will do in your life will be great. And the example of your life has been one that has always encouraged me. Thank you for serving others so fully, and so perfectly. You have a gift of service and I am thankful that you have rubbed off on me. You are beautiful in the Lord and He has blessed you to do big things. And I believe you will do them fully!
So, here's to Dallas slumber parties and random phone conversations that I can't wait to have. I love you both, and I'm glad our lives are together! Because you TWO are the loveliest!